I don't know if it's a real thing to be allowed to have a proud mom moment before your baby is born, but it definitely happened to me this week.
Two days ago I had my big ultrasound to check on baby's fluid, her heart, kidneys, and face. Last time, the ultrasound didn't go quite so well and I left pretty worried, so this week I was all prepped for bad news. Branden had school and I was too embarrassed to ask anyone to come with me because I was scared I was going to have a massive meltdown, so I went to the hospital by myself.
The ultrasound tech started by checking baby's little heart. It was so cool. You could see all four little chambers pumping. I started to relax because she was all sleepy inside of me, and for some reason that calmed me down. Her heart rate was pretty relaxed; she always naps during the day. Especially when I'm in my classes, because she doesn't want to be in college yet.
The tech then scanned from her heart to her face. Baby was laying face up, and right when the camera landed on her, she lifted up her little hands and rubbed her face, all sleepy-like. It was so freaking cute. Then she put her hands down and I got a great look at her little profile.
I saw her adorable little button nose and her mouth slightly open, and I just stared at her. After about 10 seconds, I started getting all choked up. I looked at the tech lady and said "Look at how beautiful she is! Look at her little nose!" and the lady responded by telling me all about how perfect and adorable my baby was.
This was my first proud mom moment, and it was pretty cool. This moment was the first time that I've really seen baby's face, and I suddenly felt this incredible, overwhelming awe that she was there and she was mine.
I went home and told Branden that baby and I would be best friends and match every day until her 20th birthday, have a theme song, and that she truly was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. Ever since then, every time she kicks I am like "WOW SHE IS SO STRONG I AM SO PROUD" and every time she moves I am like "WOW SHE IS SO SMART; I CAN TELL." She is perfect.
Loves,
Kaylee
